memories... regrets... & how life just got in the way

Why is it that life always get in the way? There are so many obstacles that we have to through to get what we want... and sometimes we still can't get it. Which leaves us pondering for the rest of our life... ' what if ' ....
Life, it just sucks sometimes. *ugh* I wonder why is it that I pile myself with all these projects with school, van lang, vsa, etc. What good could really come out of this in the long run? I find myself in every waking moment, there is always something going on, but whenever I am not running around like a mad lady... I find myself wondering about you. Why? Why is it that it always come back to you? You, how can so much emotion and passion be reserved for just one person. For what? Pure heartache. In my mind, these scenarios keeps playing how about we would meet on the street one day. How would we act around each other? Would we just pass each other by... or say Hi to each other which would lead to the inevitable awkward silence, but one thing is predictable. In the end, we will say our good byes and walk down our paths which will never cross. I don't even know why I still feel this way. I don't even remember the last time we actually talked. I guess a part of you will always be with me. How can you love someone so much when they were never yours to begin with? Maybe that's why it is so hard to let go sometimes.
I can still remember all the special times we shared together, like it was yesterday. Almost like words written out of a romantic love story. Those were the most magical moments in my life that I will cherish for ever and ever. The way you looked at me under the moonlight, and when u held my hand... I knew at that moment, everything was perfect. Although I knew we were walking down the road of impossible. The day that you left was one of the saddest days I ever experienced. Not a moment went by when I didn't think of you, Wondering what you were doing, How you were doing... and in hopes you were doing the same. Just when I thought I finally was over you, you always managed to creep back into my thoughts and dreams. Although it was frustrating at times, it made me smile just thinking about you....
Maybe it's that you never liked me as much I liked you. Maybe it's that you never thought of me as much I thought of you. But one thing is for sure, what you and I had was magical and irreplaceable. I will go through life with you tucked deeply in my heart. Whether you know it or not, a part of my heart will always with you, and maybe because of that.... I will always love and admire you no matter where life takes the both of us.